A lot on my mind

I have been doing a lot of thinking and had TONS on my mind. So I thought I would attempt to share what I have been thinking, and feeling.

FRIENDS!

I have thought a lot lately about great friends and what a blessing it is to have great ones!! I am blessed to have several that are willing to help me at any time and listen to my crying!!! Thank you all!!!

FAMILY!

Family, I have two AMAZING families and could not ask for any more!!! They are so great....just a little story for you all. My parents are doing the 12 days of Christmas to all the grand kids, it has been so much fun and the gifts are not traditional. They have been like, choose your favorite outfit to keep and pick one to give away, or have a movie night with your family. Well last night we opened ours and it was "FAMILY FLASH CARDS"

laminated pictures of every person in our Family with info on back (name, birthday, Favorites etc...) Well my girls loved them and really appreciated them, something I can not say if they would have got them on Christmas Day. So as we are sitting there last night pondering how great it is to have such wonderful families we get a call from Karen to let us know my dear sister-in-laws Dad had passed away, my heart just aches for her. I can't even begin to imagine the thought of loosing my dad. Steph, is an amazing woman and her strength through this all just blows me away. How she can keep it all together is truly inspiring to me. They have great faith, strength, patience and an awesome family bond that will get them through. She really makes me want to be a better person, I never hear a poor me or a grip from her she just goes with a smile on her face and keeps moving. I want to tell her how sorry we are for her, and we love her and her family.

So, today, and always, I am very grateful to be happy and healthy along with a healthy extended family.

Feeling very INADEQUATE!!!

Well I have been feeling VERY, less than PAR!! After several bad meltdowns with my kids (Sorry Haley) I wonder why I deserve them because I feel like the deserve much more...... Someone who can keep there stuff together and not loose it, really loose it. I love my little munchkins more than anything else but really sometimes I wonder why they got me!! I am so blessed that they are easy to forgive and they make me understand how important family really is. We went to church on Sunday, 20 min late may I add and sit down to hear the Bishop announce that the meeting today will be all focused on being to church ON TIME!!! Great I wanted to crawl under my seat and never be seen again. Here are so many families with lot's more kids than me and they can make it on time so WHAT is my deal and I even had Calvin with me, and still are late. Bless our bishop and counselors, I know how important it is, but I may still be late but it is better late than never RIGHT!!! I will try harder to be on time but I will still go even if I am LATE.

HUSBAND

My number one FAN!! THANK YOU, for putting up with a lot of poor, poor, why, me days and letting me get some good early Christmas presents for myself. He is my best friend and I don't know what I would do without him!! LOVE YOU TONS HONEY!!!

Well somehow I feel much better, I think this was the most random post ever from feeling down to happy. But, in reality I KNOW I am blessed and my family is most important thing to me. Of course at this time of year it is hard to get caught up in all the HUSTLE and BUSTLE so thanks to all of you who share your thoughts and our great parents who keep us grounded and remembering the TRUE meaning of CHRISTMAS!!!!

I hope you all have a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!